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January 2009
- my brother, Drew, moved to Chicago.
- lots of snow, and cold temperatures.
- first game night with the Fischens!

February

- Our winter escape to Florida!
- Drew moved back to TN
- Starved Rock exploration

March

- tried really hard to get outside to soak up sunshine even though it was still COLD.
- St Patrick’s Day party
- I got promoted, and made my way to the big CITY working steps away from the John Hancock.

April

- went home to TN for my mom’s birthday
- reunited with my biological father Kenny after 23 years!!!
- Nathan built an awesome “privacy fence” in our backyard, and then we were forced to take it down.

May

- planned a romantic surprise getaway to Milwaukee, WI
- saw James Taylor in concert, and got his autograph!!

June

- took a trip up to NH to finalize some wedding plans, see the location, and hang out with family!
- my 27th birthday!
- took my annual trip out west to California to visit AJ and Shea, and spend a few days camping in the Nevada desert!

July

- wedding planning galore!
- lots of bbq
- camping at Lake Geneva, WI (amazing!!!)
- got a kiddy pool to sunbathe in

August

- Our two year anniversary!
- bachelorette fun
- um, we got our marriage license and felt the anticipation for the big day.

Septemeber
- Ren Faire
- We realized we had to give Belle back, and were saddened.
- I got robbed.
- Nathan’s birthday - I baked him cupcakes, and Belle ate them ALL in ten minutes when we weren’t looking.
- pre wedding stress!!!!!
- left on a jet plane to NH to start the party

October

- We got married!!!
- I had all my friends in one spot together, and it was amazing.
- met my amazing older brother Josh (for the first time) when he and Kenny came to our wedding.
- We spent a few days driving around the beautiful New England coast - Mass, NH, Maine!
- I started to feel the aftermath of September …hard.
- My camera got stolen on Halloween.
- Nathan started school.

November
- took a sewing class
- watched time fly by
- purchased our first big thing together - a tv!
- saw Broadway showing of The Addams Family in Chicago
- hosted Thanksgiving

December

- decided we weren’t going to do anything “big” for Christmas
- but we did get our tree in a snow storm
- Nathan finished his first class with flying colors.
- had a meltdown or two, but it’s winter. so there.
- lost my cell phone (i mean we have terrible luck with electronics)
- booked a booth at Empty Bottle’s handmade faire
- taught Tucker how to walk on a leash (better)

watching Anthony Bourdain: No Reservations for the first time ever, and dreaming about our honeymoon (this summer).

hobby:
Main Entry: 2hobby
Function: noun
Inflected Form(s): plural hobbies
Etymology: short for hobbyhorse
Date: 1816
: a pursuit outside one’s regular occupation engaged in especially for relaxation

I’m sitting in my living room. It’s dark. And, the Christmas tree is glowing red, green, blue, orange. It’s only 11 am, but it feels later. This is the room we’ve been meaning to paint a brighter color. We haven’t gotten around to that just yet, though. Actually, I haven’t gotten around to a lot of things yet. Christmas has flown by. I don’t really want to wrap the few presents I have purchased. And, I haven’t. I keep meaning to start working out, or finish a sewing project that I know I can finish. But I haven’t. I’ve been watching a lot more tv, though.

I am unmotivated.
Really, I am restless and anxious and unmotivated and bored.
I woke up this morning wondering if I am the only one? Does this happen at our age? What is going on? I am not an unmotivated person, dammit!

Well of course I turned to google. And, with a bit of trepidation and humor I googled “women unmotivated lazy,” and didn’t happen upon what I knew I needed to read. So then I googled, “women wedding depression.”

Jackpot!

I mean this is really hard for me to admit, and it’s not a SEVERE depression meaning I’m not a second away from slitting my wrists or not getting out of bed ever. I go to work every day, I socialize, I walk my dog, I love my husband.

But I think I am suffering from post-wedding blues.
I think I have been for a while now. And, that on top of all the other changes in my life that have happened in the past 3 months have just grown into a mountaintop of transition.

I chuckled when I read this.

SheKnows: What are some indications of post-wedding depression?

Eagan: Irritability, restlessness, sadness, boredom, arguing with your spouse over “small things” and decreased sexual activity, to name a few.

Hmmm… now to figure this shit out, and get over it.
And, if you have any advice please share!

Article from She Knows “Post-Nuptial Blues” by Jennifer Chowdhury.